And when you think it's all a big fake, all those things you did yesterday, they seem like nothing today. Just, shut up and smile. It's not what you want to do, but it's what you have to do.
You'd like to hit a wall with your fist and broke your hand, just to have something more to think about and don't worry. Or you'd like to lay on your bed all day long, maybe crying or sleeping or remembering or doing nothing. But no, you're not alone in the world, so you have to shut up your feelings and smile like always.
Bite your tongue but be careful not to poison you. It's not good pretending you're fine when you're not, but is worse being all day like depressant and out of all your relationships. So, just try to forget it, you're gonna get throught this, with or without help.